Life With Me, Myself, And My Dog

Why?

2010-03-04T14:00:00.000-08:00

Why?

Why is it so hard?

Can't it be easier?

Why not? I know you can do it!

Do I really have to go through this?

Is it truly necessary?

It's something I just can't carry!

Why, I ask. Why?

Can't you just take it all away?

It would make the load so light,

And then I could carry it! I'd make it there in a day!

No more falling, stumbling,

No more bowing, no more humbling

No more depression, no more sadness

No more of this worlds madness!

All of these things would be no more!

...

"Then what would you need me for?"

Ahh... Home... or not...

2009-07-13T10:34:00.000-07:00

Jacob Hash, Trip day 6

Nowy Tomysl, 13, 07, 09

Well, I survived my english camp (Stories of God English camp 2009, Katowice, Poland, in Zywiec). Now I am at the camp in Nowy Tomysl (Northernish Poland) for two days, then me and my dad go on to the camp in Koszalin ( by the Polish sea). I just came back from slot.
The camp I am at is in their Music time right know, singing "I am Free" and then "Undignified". Im loving it!!!
But all that is good has to end... And then begin again tomorrow night.
But life will go on. As it has for the past oh so many years. As it has when the Jacksons left, when the Jones' left, when the Cupery's left, When the Andersons left, when the Pitchers left, when the Runzos left, when Becca left, when, when, when... There have been many "when's" and many more "left's". But I'm okay with it. ... Okay, not really. I'm not totally okay with it. In fact it's really hard for me. But I will live on. My life is not just suddenly gonna stop. Even though it would be so much easier if it did. No more problems, no more sadness, no more shame, no more fear, no more tears, no more of anything bad, of anything painfull, of anything evil. But then I realized that then there would be no more good, no more fun, no more redemption, for everything would be nonexistent to me. Or maybe I would no longer exist. Well, that would suck. At the very least, I would be doing the same thing to my friends as What they did to me, but they didn't have a very big choice in the matter. I do.
I could just stop living. Or, at least, stop caring. It would be so easy. Just stop caring for people, and for God. Just stop caring... so easy... Just live for myself. Live by myself. From now on.
Does God think that it is time for my family to leave, for me to leave. Is he treating all these people leaving me as a test, as a joke? If and when the time comes, will I be able to listen to God, and go to the states? Will I be able to follow the example of all my friends, and go? Or will I be like Jonah? Will I run away? Or will I listen? When my parents tell me that they have been told by God that it is time to go, will I accept it? Will I go? Will they really hear the right voice? Will the devil have a clever disquise? Will my parents be tricked? Will I be tricked?
Will I be able to live in the states? In a new place? In a new life? Will I be able to forget my old life? Will I need to? Or will I need to keep it?
Will I be the "last man standing," or will I leave some friends back in Europe, like I have been left time, and time again? I hope not. But I also do not want to be left. That wouldn't be very cool either.
Those where all my thoughts at the moment. I don't even want to read it over, because it makes me feel sad. That, and I need to go get ready for Cosmic night at the camp. Hope to talk back soon.

Jacob Hash

Ha Ha Ha... HUH?!

2009-05-15T01:16:00.000-07:00

Man, I'm tired. But anyways, here goes.
I'm sitting on the computers again, the only time I post. Sorry. But I do other things when I am at home on the computer. Important things. Necesarry things. Like whatching One Piece.
Ok, so whatch a lot of stuff, but its cool. Im not as aaddicted as I once was. Im doing better... somewhat. I have a test in about an hour, in math, but, its cool. I think that I will be fine. I hope... GULP...
For everyone who reads my blog ( all two of you =), if you were at conference, I hope you had a great time. Cause man, I did, and I don't want you to miss out.
I went in to the weekend thinking "Oh man, this is going to by a huge cry fest. Well, I better start collecting tissues now." But that wasn't it at all. It was actually really fun, and I'm glad I was there.
It may be hard to say this, or to understand it ( I know I don't), but i think that Becca leaving is the right thing to do. I mean, sure, it'll be hard, and sad and what not (heck, it already is), but this is the way it was meant to be. This is what was meant to hppen. This is what God planned for us all. And Iam happz that I can obez him. Even if it is hard, which it is, I will obey Him. It is worth it.

Well, I'll try and get back soon, so hang in there!!!

Bye,
Jacob

2009-05-15T01:15:00.001-07:00

New Friday... Darn...

2009-03-27T01:57:00.000-07:00

Well, im at school once more, sitingn on the computers, bored out of my wits. I think that this is the only time I post now a days, and it still is not often enough. I do not like fridays, i think they stink. I now have to start school at seven ten. Its crazy. Thats usually the time I am getting out of bed! But actually, I woke up at six this morning, and I felt fine... until I had my polish language class. I think I fell asleep, but I cant be sure. I dont really remember.
SO, I was at the Runzo's house last week. It was awsome! And I was there without my parents. It was wierd, but I really enjoyed it. Let me explain how I got there. See, mz parents were on a vacation thingz with the other pastor of oor church, his wife, and the elder of our church. They went to Spain, I think... We flew from Krakow to Stansted, London together. From there I just about doubled back and flew to Riga, whereas my parents flew ot Spain. The border gards took my tooth paste and my Deoderant, but other than that I made it whole to Riga. Me and Brennan had a great time! We played on their trampoline, played Wii( mainly Mario Kart), and we made somebody special a goodbye present. It was one of the funest weeks Ive had in a long time. And, one of the most important things about the week, THE FOOD WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don t think i have eaten that much and so well for a long time. It was great! I also had a fun time being with Hayley and Helen. They were part of the overall experiance too, and I was very glad I got to hang out with them too, even if only for a bit. Well, that is what I have been doing lately, and now im back in school. Bu tI have a request for all my Wii playing blog readers. If you have Mario Kart for Wii, please put your enumber o nthis site as a request. I would grately apreciate it. I want to play with people I know.
Well, I will post back soon, I hope,
Bye
Jacob

Well... i'm back

2009-02-11T03:50:00.000-08:00

Well... i'm back at school after a two week break, and i don't want to be here. I kinda just want to be done with school. I dont want to keep going to a place where people yell at me in a language that is not my best language. And the reason they arre yelling at me is becuase im not doing good in that language. It's anoying. But this is my life, and I am used to it, even th9ough I sometimes wish it was different. At the End of the day, I like who I am, and that is enough for me. At least I know that God always loves me.

Hobey YO!!!

2009-01-14T02:11:00.000-08:00

Well school is going again, and im at school typing on the computers. Really their actually pretty good.
I did get a Mac though, and it is so much better. I can even record myself playing guitar. I'm going to get an electric guitar on sunday, from a guy that goes to our church that used to be in a stanic band. The guitar is like 5000 zł, so abou 2 500 bucks. Im scared that i will brake it. But i am really gratefull to the guy that is lending it to me. I cant believe it though.

This Saturday i have my once-a-month youth group, and im pretty excited. Itts gonna be fun.

So that is what is waiting for me in the upcoming days.
Gotta go,
Bye
Jacob

Hey!!!

2008-12-17T02:07:00.000-08:00

Well, hey there!!!
I hope you are all doing well! Im sorry that i didn't write, but i Just haven't... sorry! My house is all decorated, even my room is cleaned up a bit! We are having all of FALA over on friday for a christmasy party thingy! Poles and Americans alike! I might even get my new phine then. My old one is gone.
If you re wondering what book to read, i have a few suggestions... First of all - Pendragon! It rocks, especially if you like fiction. Second i suggest Eragon - I'm re-reading it, and im really enjoying it. Really that is all i have read in the past month or two... No, wait... Artemis Fowl, The whole series! THose books are amazing!
I hope that somebody is reading this... and whoever you are i can't wait to see you!
Ill post again soon... Hopefully....
Bye,
Jacob

A Sweet Logic Game!!!

2008-10-26T10:32:00.000-07:00

I Highly suggest playing this game! It is hard, but it rocks hard too!!!

Click on the link below:
http://www.miniclip.com/games/bloxorz/pl/

TV and the weekend.

2008-10-10T12:50:00.000-07:00

Hey you guys!!! I just wanted to say that i love the week end! Every week i look forward to the week end as if it was the beginning of summer vacation. The problem with that is that i watch way to much TV, even on normal school days. I'm pretty much addicted to the TV. I can tell myself in the morning that i will not watch any TV that day, but if i do not tell myself that, then i usually watch as much TV as possible. I think that TV is one of the top three drugs of choice in the 21st century, and i think we should fight it! I do not mean to not watch TV, what i mean, is that we should not revert to the TV as soon as we have nothing to do. I know that that is my problem. That, and a lot of times i just do not feel like doing anything else. I pray that no one would have the same problem as i do. I have found that i do not really spend time with my friends, and i really wish i would. So please listen to my warning, and do not watch to much TV.

Jacob

My Favorite Bands: Relaying on Relient K.

2008-10-09T12:28:00.000-07:00

I just wanted all you Me, Myself And My Dog readers to know that Relient K is a very good christian / punk rock-ish band. I highly recommend their newest album: The Bird And The Beesides, as well as their Christmas album: Let It Snow Baby... Let It Randier. They have a very good sound. If I was to tell you what my favorite song was, i would have a hard time answering, but i would most likely say that, at the moment, my top three are:
1. From End To End,
2. Merry Christmas, Here's To Many More,
3. Here I Go.
Well that's all for now.
Tune in next time for:
My Favorite Bands: Switch It Up With Switchfoot.

Hey Yo!!! Agian

2008-10-08T01:50:00.000-07:00

How are y'all?! I'm really starting to like thes shool computers... i can catch up on these kinda things. I was in a street basketball tournament last saturday... my team got sixth place... out of six. Hey, we only lost to two teams - V6, a team of guys each about a head taller than us, and " The Girls"... Ya, they were girls, and we lost to them, but in my defence i did foul them... not that it's a good thing to hurt girls. Also this saturday i am going to go wark on Alice's lawn and then record some songs with my friend. Ya, we are going to record a few songs with me playing giutar and him playing bass. We have written a few songs so i hope we can do this. Yesterday the two older hughes girls (Lily and Page, Age 6 and almost 3) left our house with there dad after a two day "sleep over." I realized then that little girls really know how to cry their eyes out, it's just crazy!!! I hope you all have a good week and enjoy youre life. Talk to you later. BYBY!!!

Changes, Changes

2008-09-05T13:01:00.000-07:00

Yeah, and speaking of changes... My Blog got a new look... sweet, huh? Another big thing that's changing in my life is how much homework i get. O.K. i know that every year school gets harder and all, but two qiuzes in the second week of school... that's a bit much, now don't you think? But anyways, i'll make it throught just like always, so no worries. Have you ever eaten so much you were ready to burst? well that's what happend to me today at dinner. Ya know, at first i wasn't really hungry, but then my mom made pizza, and eat some, well actually, i ate alot. I almost puked. Wow... But i'm A O.K. now, so agian no worries. AH... Finnaly the weekend is here...The best day of the week... the Weekend... AH...
Hope to comunnicate somehow agian soon. So Long, Farewell, Auf wwiederzen, Godbye... However that goes... Bye

Shout out #1

2008-09-04T07:05:00.000-07:00

Hey, i just want to give a shout out to The Runzo's, considering there leaving and all... i'm sure they appreciate it if you guys would pray that Mr. Runzo would find a job, and that all the offsprong would end up in good school's. Just that everything would go really well. That's about it.

Hey Yo!!!

2008-09-04T03:16:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!!! I think i might be able to keep up with this thing now, so i might as well try. I'm sitting at school right now, waiting for my french class to begin, in about an hour, AUGH!!!!!!!
Butt migh tas well make the best of the time. I just wanted to let you guys know that i am still alive and well, and god has been doing a few little things in me. Have you peoples ever thought about how many things God has given us... i mean look at the kids in Asia, They have like no food, no home, many of them not even a family, most of them not knowing God. And here i'm complaining about having to wait an hour so that i can go to school, witch i don't even want to do. Most of those kids would give just about anythiing to be able to go to school. There are so many things to be thankful for, that i just have to stop myself from just praying all night so that i can get some sleep. But after i'm done thanking him for things, then i star asking him to take care of poeple, to bless them, and all sorts of things in that general matter. It's just amazing. You know, i was praying for becca last night, and i raealised just how much she has done for us, and that i'm really going to miss her, like alot!!! It's hard for me to believe she's leaving... SOB!!! For now that's all but I'LL BE BACK!!!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!

2007-07-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

HI Guys!!! Sorry i haven't posted anything new for a long time but i, well, did not fell like it! Sorry!!! Ill try to keep up better now! Um, so i just got back from Krakow, a proud owner of a new set of flower sticks (for those of you who don't know, that's my hobby, and when i see you, and if i have them with me ill show you). See my old ones got( i think) stolen when i was at slot, either that or i lost them, but the second one is highley unlikely. Tomorow Caleb Patty is coming over so that well be fun! OK gotta go! BYBY

uhoh!

2007-06-19T09:04:00.000-07:00

the interns just called us to tell us that they were3 driving like onehundred km per hours and the back whell just fell of, i mean all of it like everything just so ya know. but they are all o.k. all they did is drag it a bit. so wow,hu? Please pray for them!

baseball and other junk!

2007-06-19T08:55:00.000-07:00

On sunday i went to caleb pattys baptism( sweet hu?), then i went to his house and we threw sooooooo many basbals between each other my arm sort of kind of hurt. tha thing is know he got me in to baseball so at about 5.00 p.m. today i got a baseball and a bat and i hit it intomy nieghbors yard and lost it. so i trid to use a tennisball but i hit it into a tree and it didint fall down so i was out of balls to hit! Oh yeah im gonna be an honor student!whohoooo!

oooooh!

2007-06-16T11:44:00.000-07:00

well here are some of the things that are going on right now in my life. my good friend from church is in the hospital cause they found a lump in his lungs when they where testing if he was cured from his pneumonia. school is the most stupid thing in my life right now because i don't do anything anyways just sight around in class so snap! but i am a honor student so cool. I guess thats sort of all thats going on in my life.

This summer!

2007-06-16T11:35:00.000-07:00

O.K. for this suumer i've got a lot of things going on so i'll tell you a few of them. so in about two weeks i go to the first camp with are youthgroup called moosk( sort of like polish "brain":-). i'll be leading a workshop twice there! its a flower sticking workshop wich is a kind of juggling. its gonna be real fun! after that im going to slot with my dad. thats a kind of festival with like over a hundred workshops so ill have fun i went last year and it was awsome! a bit later we might go to a camp in a city in the north-west of poland. soon after that we go on a family vacation to corsica a iland i think is in france. on the way back our parebts will drop us of some where and well meat the bus that will take us to JV kids camp in croatia. after i get back from that i got to get ready for the new school year. thats my summer in mega overview.

school

2007-06-15T07:46:00.000-07:00

ok so im olmost done only one more week of playing cards with my friends from school.Because thats all we do fo the last like two weeks of school, ya know?I got in to the school i wanted to so sweet! im going to german class with extra french! this will be very confusing, by next year i will be speaking like four langueges at once ya know? weel wish me luck!!!

My parents

2007-06-15T07:42:00.000-07:00

my parents just got back from kreet they where celebrating there 15 aniversery. i stayed whith Alice it was awsome, i whatched a whole season of the amazing race im pooped and i think i fael jet lag! My parents brote me back a pair of nunchuks( padded) sweet hu?